Assalamu Alaikum

Argh, I was ran over this morning! I was driving to work during rush hour, and had to come to a complete stop in the highway. Unfortunately, the guy behind me didn't stop fast enough. He hit me, and pushed me into the car in front of me also, so my poor car is damaged in both front and back. Alhamdulillah, no one was hurt, and even more so, that this occurred after I dropped the kids off at school! When I had to stop, I looked in the rear view mirror, and no-one was immediately behind me, so I thought I was safe. I heard screeching tires, and looked in the mirror again to see this white blur coming at me rapidly. I closed my eyes, rested my head against the headrest, and tried to relax before being hit.

At work, there is a large population of Muslims, and we offer congregational prayer for Zuhur and Asr in an exercise room. During Zuhur, I was thinking about the accident. My thoughts right before the accident were "Oh God, this might hurt". I saw the car coming fast, heard the squealing of tires, took a deep breath closed my eyes and relaxed. I keep thinking my thoughts should have been La illaha il Allah and I worry. My faith has weakened while teaching at an Islamic school, the environment was wonderful, and I was always surrounded by Islam so I became complacent. At the same time, I saw the worst side of the community, the petty arguments and feuds, and it was depressing, and I became weaker.Alhamdulillah , everyone is well and though Allah t'ala could have easily called me home, I am still on this world. InshaAllah I can come out of this as a better person, and rekindle the fading passion to learn and grow in deen. I hope this new fear of God is the first step to a long journey.